5 Years

5 years.

5 years ago today my world changed. The universe had a grand plan for me that I could have never I M A G I N E D  or B E L I E V E D to be true. 5 years ago the person I was almost seems like a figment of my imagination because my life and personal growth since then has been so extraordinary, that in the most beautiful sense, I don’t recognise who I am. 5 years ago my life got turned upside down.

At the time I thought it was a punishment, cruel and karmic revengence coming at me for something I couldn’t understand. Looking back now though, it was the greatest blessing of my life thus far and the event that catapulted me onto the path I am now continuing to walk down today. It was glorious serendipity.

5 years ago today I got a concussion.

A concussion that lead me to having to stop everything in my life, drop out of my semester at Uni, stop working at my multiple jobs, stop doing masters synchro (which I thought at the time was the peak of my synchro career! oh how little I knew!), stop running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to achieve everything at once and nothing at all. I remember being so frustrated and angry at the world and myself for letting this happen to me. I spent nights letting hot tears stream down my face in confusion and misunderstanding. What did I do to deserve this? Why was this happening to me? Where was my life going to go when I felt like so much was taken from me?  Basically I was having a major  p i t y  p a r t y.

I am not proud of that, but it was how I felt. At the end of the day I had a roof over my head, security of living in a safe place and loving people surrounding me, so I really just needed to suck it up and have a little gratitude, but 21 year old me wasn’t there yet.

We all have those times in our lives, don’t you think? Those times where we look at the universe in the eyes with frustration asking – why isn’t everything working out the way we planned! Those times where we blame everything and everyone else for where we are in our life at the moment. Those times where we are being pushed closer and closer to the edge and want to punch stupid life in the face and give up on trusting what will be. Yah, well that was sorry old little DK around this time 5 years ago.

Now with hindsight looking back – what I thought was the greatest curse became one of my greatest B L E S S I N G S. October 23rd, 2013 was the day that the prologue for the journey of my impossible dream started to be written. A journey that has been so tough and challenging yet magical and transforming, and has made me who I am standing here today –  a girl who has a fire burning in her heart to touch this world with my spark of magic. A girl who happens to be lucky enough to be an Olympian but also knows that she has so much more to give to the world than that.

So, if you are in one of those times in your life where you are shaking your fist at the world. Looking the universe fiercely in the eyes questioning its all knowing plan and wondering why, oh why, this is happening to you. Believe. Trust. And know as hard as it may seem in this moment, that you will look back in 5 weeks, 5 months, 5 years or 50 years and understand why it all happen F O R  you.

In the meantime before you figure it all out – know that it is okay to be frustrated, it is okay to not know the answer and above all else know that you are loved – if by no-one else, then by me.

I can’t wait to hear about your 5 years story ❤

DK

2 Comments Add yours

  1. I think I fear causing others to jump. I really need as little more time to consider documenting a series of trauma that a appears to have no end. Asunder continued like that algebraic constant. But taking the ride and arriving at this day is to me a wonderful experience where the supernatural OMNIPOTENT presence of faith having provided all that is was and also constant love and protection in addition to His GRACE – that which I do not deserve yet gives me and everyone similarly.
    PEACE

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  2. Did o mention Love and Forgiveness.

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